I’m annoyed. Why can’t I be happy with what I see when I look in the mirror?
Is it because I have got to a certain age and I feel invisible?
Is it because I am seeing more and more people criticising people on social media instead of encouraging and supporting each other?
I wish I had the answers. I wish that the photos that we took last night when we went out to celebrate our daughter finishing Uni were ones that I felt comfortable enough to share.
I have just spent the last 45 minutes trying to edit my photos so that I can share them on the page. I have never edited out a wrinkle or blemish so I was astonished to see what happened when I tried to ‘fix’ one of the offending photos. Wow – it is pretty amazing what some editing programs can do. I almost didn’t look like myself in the end. I looked like a cartoon character.
You will know that my main bug bear is my two very prominent frown lines. I am sure you notice them, but probably nowhere near the amount I do. Everytime I look at a photo I see them taunting me. They are constant reminders of the terrible headaches that I have suffered most of my life. Thankfully I have mostly recovered, but they are the scars I wear for all of those years of suffering.
I came across this quote today and I am going to try to follow Alex Morritt’s advice. I have many fabulous years under my belt. I have lived and learned. I am lucky to be mature – although some may disagree with my level of maturity he, he.
For all of the gorgeous creams, lotions and potions that I use on a daily basis there is nothing that is going to make me feel better inside. It has to come from an inner peace. The dialogue has to be one of acceptance, love and support – not one of negativity, hate and yearning.
Playing around with these apps I am 100% aware that a lot of what we see on the internet and magazines is not real. Yes, there are some women who are genetically gorgeous and who don’t require ‘retouching’, but the vast majority of photos that we see are ‘modified’ in some way or another.
This week has seen the huge story of Essena O’Neil – the 19 year old Instagram ‘celebrity’ who admitted she staged her social media snaps and that her portrayed life was not ‘real’. I have spoken about this before on the blog and I worry about those who aspire to be just like the people they follow on social media.
I am certainly smart enough to know reality from the fakery, but at times we all need to be reminded that it is our inner beauty that shines the brightest.
I promise I am working hard behind the scenes to work on my self esteem and that deep down in my heart I know that the tagline for Seduced by Beauty is true and the one that we all need to hear – Beauty is more than skin deep.
Love to you always